IM - Thoughts

This coming weekend is Langkawi IM.

After the small "pinch" in May 08, this is the first event i signed up. Back then, i feel i am good enough to GO for it come Feb 09.

I was too naive to think that i can do it. Am I?

If i have not "change". I could still stand a decent chance to complete the event. Why didn't i persist?

Is it worth the effort to even attempt such an event? As we age gracefully, our fitness is like a boat moving against a current. In order to maintain current fitness level, we have to push a little harder each time.

How to know that i am still alive and kicking? By crossing the line of an event that is alittle bit overstretch?

IM is not too difficult, tough or painful that it will kills. It is just a bloody long event. I can do it again IF my body don't go haywire during the race.

Can the body take it? I don't know. The doctor won't know. Nobody knows! Since it is a bloody long race, it will be super long agony if the body decide to give up on me. It is not pain or dying, just the thought that i have to go through the long, endless journey with a leaking "fuel tank" is enough to send shiver down the spine.

Do i want to go through that experience? Sensibly i don't want.

This is an expensive experience for me. Everything is paid in full and i have to forfeit it.

Life still goes on...

New Leaf

The last few years, I have left many footprints throughout the web. Now, how do I erase the footprints if I wanted to?

It is scarily to think I couldn't do anything about it.

If I can reboot the “machine”, everything will be back to normal?

Maybe it is time that I take a step back and slowly fade away.